January 18, 2018
Read ‘Til The End.
It’s crazy to think that I have been a mother for a year and half now, and about to be a mother of two! This past year and half has flashed before my eyes, and thinking of what this new year has in store for me is exciting, but mostly I’m nervous as heck to be a mom again to another babe.
As I lay next to Naiomi, who is not so little anymore, and just stare. I can’t help but think she is the best thing that has ever happened to me. Our relationship/bond has grown immensely this past year and half and has revealed to me my strengths and weaknesses I never knew about myself. This little babe has not only grown me as a mother, but as a woman. She makes me want to be/do so much better for her, she motivates me, and she is the best part of my day.
Still, I’m so unsure of what will happen when baby #2 arrives. I know that there will be so much more love in our little family, but I just can’t seem to wrap my head around loving another baby as much as I love my little Naiomi. I am just not sure what life is going to be like, and don’t know if I am ready for it to change.
To all the moms who have multiple babies, y’all are rockstars! Balancing mom life, wife life, and being a woman who still has dreams you want to accomplish has seriously been a challenge for me. I’m still trying to navigate this new role I have taken on, but I have faith that I’ll get there. It wont be easy, and that sounds so discouraging. BUT, I’m not alone and that gives me strength.
I wrote this blog post when I was 5 months pregnant with Kairi. I was in such a dark place, so unsure of what life was going to be like with a new baby, and feeling so guilty that I didn’t know how to feel about being pregnant and welcoming our second into the world. I hope this transparency touches you. Sometimes we as woman feel this way, and it is okay! I thank God for surrounding me with a tribe of woman who uplifted me at this time. Who prayed for me, encouraged me, and did not make me feel any shame. It was so very hard for me to write these words down, but as the months went by and I got in my word, I was encouraged that this was only just a season. As soon as Kairi was born and I got to spend time with her, my heart exploded with all kinds of emotions, mostly love and joy, and I cannot imagine life without her.
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